A little update!

Since I last wrote here a couple of things have happened with our adoption. The biggest thing was our miracle with the IRS. If you want to read the story click on last blogs comment from Scott.
We also spent a couple of hours on the phone earlier this the week with the lady in Dallas that is our helper in this process. We went through all the paperwork that we now have to do for the State Department of Adoption in Ukranie. It seemed a little overwelming at first but when we had gone throught it all it didn't seem as bad. Lots of paper to get hold of but hopefully it will all work out pretty fast.

The other big deal in my life is that the same day that we found out about the IRS I also found out that my grandpa Tyko had passed away in a heartattack. He was 87 and had had a heartattack before Christmas that he survived but which had left his heart hurting. So eventhough it was suspected it always comes with lots of sorrow and loss. For me it made me feel pretty vulnerable since I don't have my dad. And it made the distance to home feel greater. It makes me sad that I can't be with my family and I won't be able to be at the funeral. It is hard to grieve when it feels so unreal.

I did have an ok relationship with my grandpa. I was able to have an evening meal with him before I left Sweden last time. We had a good conversation and once again he showered me with his generosity. My grandpa was a very very generous man. He is my big role model when it comes to giving. Growing up he made sure we had everything we needed, candy and bikes, clothes and food especially when finances where tight for mom and dad.

Through the years he has brought us many laughter's and lots of joy. He was a great Santa when we where little.
Life wasn't always nice to him. He lost his wife, my grandma, when she was only 69, his son, my dad, when he was only 46 and his grandson, my cousin, when he was only 36. It gave grandpa lots of heartache that showed up in joint pain. It didn't stop him from helping the people around him. When I was home in October he was waiting for hip surgery and could barely walk and even less up and down stairs, but every night he took the time to slowly make his way to his neighbour two flights down so they could eat an eveningmeal together and watch a show on TV. Just so she didn't have to be alone:)
I am honored that he was the one who gave me away at my wedding. A great man in many ways!
Now he has joined the rest of our family in the heavenly choir and one day we will meet again!

Take care of your close ones and give somebody a call that you haven't talked to in a while, you never know if you have another chance.

Blessings,
D

2011 is here!

Christmas came and went in a hurry. I was blessed to have my sister and 2 of her friends with me for 5 days and we spent the holidays with parts of Scott's family outside of Albuquerque. We had a great time.

4 days ago I went out to bring in a couple of our horses and slipped and fell on the new snow we where getting. Kinda hurt a little right away but nothing bad. So I thought. The longer the day went the weirder my hand felt. Not as much power to grip and grab stuff so I was wondering what I was going to feel like the next morning. My suspicion was right. I woke up and the pain I felt when I tried to use my left arm was BAD:( Went to the doctor and once more in my life my left biceps tendon had gotten hurt. They told me to keep my arm in a sling for three days.
I was not excited! And on top of that our weather turned bad so my horses needed extra attention to stay warm but it had to be done by someone else. Hard for me to just accept and trust that they where in good hands.

3 days of being still and letting Scott take care of me has been very hard but good. ( He does a great job:) I talked to one of my dear friends the day before I got hurt that earlier this fall broke her foot. She is like me a person that always is on her way to the next thing. Also very self sufficient. And she told me about her experience of needing help. Not knowing I would be in a similar situation just 2 days later I was feeling for her. But today I really feel for her. I also do think it is good for us busy bodies to have to sit for a while and have time to reflect on life and accept help from others.

So as you probably understand a lot of my thoughts has gone to my kids. How are they doing? What do they look like? How much and how is our life going to change when they get here? How is the process going to be in Ukraine? One day I felt really sad for the biological parents of our babies. What has been going on in their lives that they had to give up the rights to their kids? What has our kids been through before they come to us?
Lost of speculation that has led to more prayer. Cause no matter how much I speculate I won't know till later but I can always pray. And I pray that God will send his angels around them, that they will know that HE is their father and that they will experience his love this very moment.

We don't have any news at this point. Pretty soon we will have to start gathering all the papers all over again. Just tedious work but nothing hard.

Tomorrow I'll be going back to work and please pray that I will have no lingering pain from this accident.

Stay warm out there!
Blessings D